Morgan

by Dawn Vogel

Morgan was my character in the Broken Sword of Caine LARP. This is the background that I turned in for her.

I. Morgan
"Dead to the world means alive to this girl..."
--Sun Sawed in Half
, The Happiness

Morgan was born Stephanie Morgan on October 31st, 1972, in Seattle. Her mother, Liz, worked nights as a waitress at a bar; her father was nowhere to be found within a week after he found out Liz was pregnant. Tim, the man who owned the bar where her mother worked, took in Liz and Morgan, and became like a foster father to Morgan. Although they were poor, Tim and Liz did their best to make sure that at least Morgan was warm, sheltered, and fed.

Her childhood was relatively tame. She was a quiet child who learned to read at an early age, and enjoyed telling stories, either those she had read or those she had made up, to Liz and Tim. At least for the first five years of her life, she lived a moderately happy existence.


II. Tim
"Seems three years, though maybe four
Someone drops dead whom I adore
You love someone, there will be grief
The kiss of death, lips of a thief"
--Type O Negative
, Everyone I Love is Dead

On Christmas Eve, 1977, Tim stayed late at the bar to wrap Morgan’s Christmas presents. On the way home, in the alley just outside of the apartment building, he was jumped and murdered by a gang of street thugs. When Morgan awoke the next morning, she rushed to her window to see if it had snowed during the night. Instead, she saw the scattered remnants of what were supposed to be her presents covering Tim’s body. Before Liz could was fully aware of what had happened, Morgan rushed down to the alley, screaming for Tim to wake up. As soon as Morgan arrived at his side, she knew he was dead. She reached out to touch his face and seemingly blacked out.

In reality, she saw Tim’s dying moments through his own eyes…

...
I’m standing on the street, only it’s not me standing there. I’m taller. I can tell that right away. The world looks different from up here. I’m carrying something heavy, a big paper sack filled with pretty colored presents. Presents for Stephanie and Liz. Why am I carrying my own presents? I’m not me... those are Tim’s shoes on my feet. Oh, I must be Tim! I’m Tim?

Somewhere nearby I/Tim hears the sound of breaking glass. Just ahead, and to the left. That’s the alley outside of my/Stephanie’s room. A bunch of bad boys helping someone climb through the first floor window. I/Tim opens my mouth and says "Stop!" The boys stop and look at me/Tim. I/Tim shouldn’t have said anything. I/Tim starts to back away, but they’re running towards me/Tim. They have knifes and pieces of broken glass in their hands. One of them rips the bag of presents away from me/Tim, and the packages go flying and hit the ground. As the boys begin to stab me, I/Tim sees the one present that mattered the most. The ring for mom/Liz. So that she can marry Tim and be happy again...

When Liz reached Tim and Morgan’s side, Morgan appeared to be catatonic. Her mother rushed her to the hospital, where the doctors were baffled. Aside from a lower than normal body temperature, Morgan seemed simply to be sleeping soundly. When she awoke, her overall body temperature was back to normal, but her hands remained cold. The doctors, well aware that Liz had no medical insurance for herself or daughter, hurried them out of the hospital. The local clinic could determine nothing about Morgan’s permanently chilled hands or the reduction in her sense of touch. They called it permanent frostbite, shrugging their shoulders while hoping it would eventually correct itself. Morgan, with no other options, simply shrugged her shoulders and moved on.


III. Maria
"For it’s better to forget
than to remember me and cry..."
--The Cure
, Treasure

The next few years were difficult for Morgan. She became withdrawn, and had troubles making friends. She and her mother moved to San Francisco two years later, where her mother worked two jobs, both of which kept her out of the apartment long hours. After a couple of years, Maria, the landlady at the building where they lived, noticed the quiet young girl coming home by herself to an empty apartment every day. Maria introduced herself to Morgan, and invited her to her apartment for milk and cookies. Within a few weeks, they were good friends. Maria had been to college, but had a baby and had to drop out. The baby had died, and now Maria lived by herself, taking care of the run-down apartment building and dealing with the sometimes unruly tenants. Morgan stayed with Maria every day after school, enjoying the fresh baked cookies, doing her homework, and reading Maria’s books.

One afternoon, Morgan took a little longer coming home from school than usual. The flowers were just beginning to bloom, and she wanted to pick some for Maria and Liz. When she arrived at Maria’s apartment, the door was hanging wide open, the door frame battered and splintered near the lock. Maria’s body was sitting on the couch, her throat sliced open. Barely thinking, Morgan rushed to Maria’s side and blacked out again.

And for the second time in her life, Morgan saw the dying moments of a friend through her own eyes...

...
I/Maria is standing in the kitchen, just taking the cookies out of the oven. Oatmeal raisin, my/Stephanie’s favorite. Before I/Maria can slide them off of the cookie sheet, I/Maria hear someone banging on the door. Probably someone else going to tell me/Maria they can’t pay the rent on time. Happens every month. Before I/Maria reaches the door, it flies open, thanks to a good swift kick from one of the new tenants. Jaime, I/Maria thinks. He and a friend that I/Maria doesn’t recognize have knives in their hands. Before I/Maria can react, they’ve pushed me/Maria down on the couch. Jaime holds a knife to my/Maria’s neck while the other one starts pulling books off of the shelves. My/Maria’s eyes keep darting to the doorway. Please, God, don’t let me/Stephanie see this. Jaime asks me where I/Maria keeps my/her money. I/Maria tells him I/Maria doesn’t have any in the apartment. He shakes his head. Wrong answer. My/Maria’s eyes dart back to the doorway. The last thing I/Maria sees is the open doorway, with no sign of me/Stephanie...

By the time Liz arrived home from work that night, she found Morgan sitting at home doing her homework, saying that Maria had not answered her door when she came home that day. Liz told Morgan as gently as she could that Maria had died. Morgan sniffled a little bit for her mother’s benefit, but all of her real emotions had been spent after seeing Maria’s death. By the time Liz got to the casserole in the oven, she found it slightly singed. Morgan wrinkled her nose at it at first, but realized she couldn’t actually smell the burnt food. After a few bites, she also realized that she could taste nothing. She experimented with different flavors and smells over the next few days, but discovered that she had no sense of taste or smell. Not wanting to trouble her mother, who was already making plans to relocate to Chicago, Morgan simply shrugged her shoulders and moved on.


IV. Sean and Cassie
"I don’t want to get hurt so
just skip hello and go
straight to goodbye..."
--Pale Divine
, Straight to Goodbye

Chicago was more of the same. Morgan was never very good at making friends, and most of her peers saw her as the weird new girl. Perhaps unconsciously, she shied away from much social contact, beginning to wonder if anyone who became her friend would die. Over the next several years, she spent most of her afternoons and evenings at home, reading voraciously and keeping to herself. Once again, however, she caught the attention of some of her neighbors. Sean and Cassie were engaged, and planning to get married in the summer. Cassie worked for a pharmaceutical plant, and Sean was finishing his Master’s degree in architecture. Soon Morgan began spending her afternoons with Sean, looking through high powered binoculars at the city’s decaying architecture. Cassie would come home right before the sun set, and Morgan and Sean would show her the buildings that they had found that day. Then Morgan and Cassie would look through wedding magazines while Sean cooked dinner.

One evening, Cassie wasn’t home before the sun set. Sean tried to hide his concern, but as Morgan helped him start dinner, she could tell something was wrong. When the phone rang while Morgan was setting the table, she didn’t need to answer it to know that something bad had happened.

Morgan and Sean took a cab to the plant where Cassie worked. There had been a horrible fire that was just being extinguished. The firemen hadn’t been able to get in the building to find any bodies yet, but the outlook was grim. The temperatures had far exceeded those a normal human could withstand. Morgan wasn’t satisfied with that. She had to see the body herself. As she began to cry hysterically and run towards the building, she blacked out. This time, there was no vision of death from the victim’s eyes. This time, there was nothing.

When she woke up, she was on the couch at Sean and Cassie’s apartment. Sean was sitting nearby, looking as though he hadn’t slept all night. The firemen had searched the building all night and into the morning. They had found only remnants of the bodies, charred to the point where even dental identification was impossible. Cassie was dead. Morgan, still exhausted from her crying the night before, could only nod and hug Sean weakly. She waited until he went to sleep, and then left the apartment quietly.

By this point, Morgan was sure that her mere presence was poison to her friends. She continued on with school, remaining distant from her peers and her mother. After graduating from high school, she moved to Detroit to attend college. She found a small apartment above a bookstore, and got a job working nights in the bookstore. The bookstore was usually quiet at night, so Morgan was able to get her homework done and read a few interesting books in her spare time. Most of the patrons were college students, like herself, but there were also three women in their 30s who frequented the store. These women occasionally bought books, but usually just browsed, all the while casting knowing glances at Morgan, as if they knew all that she had been through.


V. Sean, Part 2
"Remember me not as I am
but as I was as your truest friend..."
--E
, A Most Unpleasant Man

One night, a patron stumbled into the store. Morgan thought at first that it was a drunken bum, but realized almost immediately that her first glance had deceived her. The stumbling man was Sean. He was virtually incoherent, but Morgan could tell that he was not in good health. She locked up the store and rushed him to the emergency room. She waited there until nearly dawn before the doctors would let her see him.

Sean was thin to the point of emaciation, barely recognizable as his old self. The years had not been kind to him, and his once dark brown hair now showed strands of gray. He seemed as though he was no longer suffering, opening his eyes and watching Morgan as she approached his bed. The peaceful smile he gave her repulsed her for a moment, for in that smile, she saw that Sean was ready to let himself die. He flatlined as she reached his side. Trembling, she placed her hands over his eyes…

...
I/Sean is standing near the store. This isn’t the first time I/he has been here, but I/he has never come in. I/he followed one of the weird women here. I/he is trying to stay out of sight, but I/he can’t contain myself/himself any more... I/he calls out to her... "Cassie"... no, that can’t be... Cassie died four years ago... but she turns to me/Sean, and it is Cassie... my/his beloved... no...

Morgan found herself standing beside Sean’s bed with tears streaming down her face. For the first time, she had broken off the vision on her own. She couldn’t allow herself to see any more. As she wiped the tears from her eyes, she noticed that the room seemed to have grown more dim. Reentering the waiting room, the florescent lights didn’t seem to bother her eyes as much. Knowing instinctively what had happened to her sight, she shrugged her shoulders and wasted no time leaving the hospital.

The walk back to her car seemed to stretch into an eternity. Just before she got there, she noticed someone standing near her car, as though they were waiting. Looking up, she saw the weird women from the store, and then nothing...


VI. Cassie, Part 2
"I’m going to give you the choice I never had..."
--Lestat to Louis, in
Interview with a Vampire

Morgan awoke abruptly. She was somewhere damp, but other than that, all she knew was a searing pain throughout her entire body. Her attempted scream was muffled by a hand clamped firmly across her mouth. Standing before her was one of the women from the bookstore. And as the light shifted subtly, the woman became Cassie. Keeping her hand in place over Morgan’s mouth, Cassie began explaining. She and the others had been watching Morgan for some time now. Morgan had passed their tests. Was she ready to join them?

Morgan nodded, but whispered a single question. "Why not Sean?" Cassie’s previously smug look flickered for a moment. "I... I couldn’t save him." Now it was Morgan’s turn to falter momentarily, but she kept her composure and asked Cassie to proceed.

The next week was sheer torture. Morgan was, for once in her life, glad for her mostly deadened senses. The pain inside was constant, but at least there was little external pain. Only the strange noises that she heard from time to time bothered her, mainly because she could not identify them. One week after Morgan had watched Sean die, Cassie returned to her. She first showed Morgan a mirror, then her own true visage. As Cassie explained, she had died in the fire at the pharmaceutical plant. But she had been found by roving Sabbat vampires, who had Embraced her and instructed her in their ways. Now it was her turn to instruct Morgan in their ways.


VII. Sabbat
"No you just can’t hurt me anymore..."
--School of Fish
, Euphoria

The first order of business was to introduce Morgan to the remainder of the pack., the other two women from the bookstore. Nathalie, a Lasombra, and Dori, a Brujah antitribu, had taken Cassie into their pack after her Embrace. For now, the three of them agreed that Morgan could join their pack, provided she could prove herself worthy of the honor.

For the next three months, Morgan learned as much as the pack was willing to teach her. Nathalie and Dori were amazed at her voracious appetite for knowledge, but Cassie simply marveled in the fact that Morgan’s Embrace had changed her so little. On conferring amongst themselves, the members of the pack knew how to determine Morgan’s worth. If she could successfully gather enough information on one of the other Sabbat of Detroit, without being caught, she would be given the Creation Rites.

Morgan started by following her quarry everywhere for a week, learning his patterns. The only time she lost sight of him was when he hunted. Troubled with this missing bit of knowledge, Morgan hit upon what seemed (after the fact) to be the obvious solution—she found one of his victims and tried to see the hapless soul’s demise. This being the first time she had attempted her "trick" as a Vampire, she was astounded by how well it worked. Shockingly, she discovered evidence of what her pack had suspected all along—her quarry was an Infernalist. Armed with this and some of his other secrets, revealed only through the death visions of his victims, she provided her pack with enough information to hand over the Infernalist to the Inquisition.

When asked about how she had gotten so much information, Morgan reluctantly shared her secret. She could feel Cassie’s uncomfortable stare on her as she mentioned that she had been able to do so since she was a child. After a moment’s pause, she met Cassie’s stare squarely, silently assuring Cassie that she had seen enough to know how Sean died. Cassie was the first of Morgan’s packmates to suggest that Morgan’s talents would be extremely valuable to the sect. Perhaps it would be best if Morgan left Detroit, and went somewhere where others could teach her more. Perhaps Montreal…

Morgan found Montreal precisely to her liking. The Librarians were willing to share their knowledge with her, and no one required her to form close friendships. She was simply one Cainite in an enormous city, and the freedom it granted her was priceless. The only person she formed a close relationship with was a Tzimisce by the name of Ariadne, who instructed her in the tenets of the Path of Lilith. The two kept their friendship quiet, as Ariadne had fallen out of favor with the Librarians several years previous, and did not want to diminish Morgan’s chances to learn from them. True to Morgan’s belief that anyone who got too close to her was doomed, Ariadne was destroyed in 1999 by fanatical members of the Sabbat who believed some of Ariadne’s utterances, based on the teachings of the Path of Lilith, were too heretical to be tolerated. By this point, Morgan could tell that such winds would soon blow her direction, so she quietly left for Philadelphia.

While certainly not instrumental in the attacks on Camarilla strongholds of the East Coast, Morgan’s unusual talents provided some packs with the extra edge they needed to topple Camarilla resistance. The spirits of deceased ghouls could provide much information to someone who knew how to talk to them, and those packs who had been entrusted with the knowledge of Morgan’s abilities profited by their knowledge. Once all the dust had died down, however, Morgan grew restless. Philadelphia was not home, nor were any of the other cities in which she had resided. She needed to find somewhere new, where there would be new things to learn. Catching a ride with a nomadic pack headed west, Morgan made it as far as Chicago before the pack’s luck ran out at the hands of the Scourge of Chicago. On her own, she worked her way slowly south, arriving in St. Louis shortly after the beginning of 2001. Something about the city seemed to call to her, although she could not identify what it was. But at least for the moment, it would be home.

"So this is where I say goodbye
This is where my story ends
And if there’s one thing I’ve learned from life
It’s that it gets you in the end..."
--Stabbing Westward,
Goodbye


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